I am going to start this blog off adding a simple word to the Legendary Bruce Springsteen's hit song War.
Pain
What is it good for? Absolutely EVERYTHING
Say it again, pain
What is it good for? Absolutely EVERYTHING, come on
Pain, a word, that can carry so much emotion, so much heartache and then also much excitement and joy. This week that little word pain has come to me in two of the very most extremes. I know you are scratching your head and are saying huh? So let me explain.
THE GOOD PAIN
I have stayed true to my word and I have continued to get up each morning to walk on the treadmill. No matter how much it pains me to roll out of bed and 6:00 am I get it done. I get an hour of walking in before I head off to work, about 3 miles. After run/walk my muscles are in pain. So as I reach down and rub the legs feeling the pain of the hurting muscles, however, have a sense of accomplishment. Thank you pain, because of you I know I am pushing it, I am working hard. No pain no gain, right!!
THE BAD PAIN
Going from such a high of my accomplishment and welcoming the pain into my life as I continue my path to healthy living. Pain comes to me this week in a completely different way. On Tuesday my co-worker, my friend, a brother, lost his life due to a heart attack he suffered. What the heck happened...this great thing Pain that I have welcomed this week, that I had such joy receiving, has now come to me in a form I do not want. To hear these phrases over and over all week, he has passed away, he was so young, he left 3 kids behind, his wife is now a widow...it is painful. There is no rubbing away this pain. Tomorrow will be the most painful day as we will bury our friend.
PAIN 1 MEET PAIN 2
On Saturday morning I decided to go for a long run/walk that I mapped out on MapMyRun. It was going to be a 4.25 mile route. I was a very nervous but I put the shoes on and headed out. I made it to the 2 mile mark, running a lot of it. Then the muscles starting getting that pain and I really had to slow down and take a breath. In that short time, that is all that Pain 2 needed. I was overcome with sadness and even, yes, start to cry a little. There I was half way through my walk, feeling the pain from my muscles and feeling the overwhelming pain from sadness. I wished someone I knew would drive by, offer to pick me up and take me home. But as I walked and pushed through these two pains, I realized, I needed this. This was happening and it was good for me!!
THE ENDING
After walking about a half mile dealing with these two pains coming at me at the same time, I started feeling stronger. Then the next song randomly played through my headset ... "Ooh Child" by The Five Stairsteps. Hearing that, listening to the words, I knew there was a reason this song was playing now, it was going to be okay. A blanket called relief was thrown over me and I realized I had to deal with both of these types of pains before I can come out on the other side.
PAIN 1 MEET PAIN 2
On Saturday morning I decided to go for a long run/walk that I mapped out on MapMyRun. It was going to be a 4.25 mile route. I was a very nervous but I put the shoes on and headed out. I made it to the 2 mile mark, running a lot of it. Then the muscles starting getting that pain and I really had to slow down and take a breath. In that short time, that is all that Pain 2 needed. I was overcome with sadness and even, yes, start to cry a little. There I was half way through my walk, feeling the pain from my muscles and feeling the overwhelming pain from sadness. I wished someone I knew would drive by, offer to pick me up and take me home. But as I walked and pushed through these two pains, I realized, I needed this. This was happening and it was good for me!!
THE ENDING
After walking about a half mile dealing with these two pains coming at me at the same time, I started feeling stronger. Then the next song randomly played through my headset ... "Ooh Child" by The Five Stairsteps. Hearing that, listening to the words, I knew there was a reason this song was playing now, it was going to be okay. A blanket called relief was thrown over me and I realized I had to deal with both of these types of pains before I can come out on the other side.